For many different reasons, the last four weeks have been a bit of a train wreck. Two people I know have passed away, there have been child-rearing challenges, problems at work, etc. I could go on but it doesn't seem like a good idea. The bottom line is I know I am broken.
The good thing about being broken is knowing you have no where to go but up. When you have hit rock bottom, you have to turn your eyes upward...to God or the sky. This looking up and away seems to help with the feeling of loneliness in the midst of brokenness.
Another good thing about being broken is that makes you pay careful attention to those around you. You listen more, you care more. You go deeper with people. I have had some great conversations with people over the past two weeks about many different things. Life, love, where to find meaning in life and love, children, parenting challenges. It's just good to share with those around you.
I count gifts on a daily basis. Interesting, my gift list of gratitude list used to look like a completed to do list. Going through grief, anger, and every other bitter emotion has completely changed this list. The list now details interactions with people. Smiles and sweetness from my children. Hugs and appreciation from my spouse. Conversations with friends and colleagues. Brokenness has changed my perspective. I am focused on people.
Brokenness. It made me look up at God. It brought me emotionally closer to those around me. It has changed my perspective. I am more focused on others.
Brokenness is good. Painful but good.
The good thing about being broken is knowing you have no where to go but up. When you have hit rock bottom, you have to turn your eyes upward...to God or the sky. This looking up and away seems to help with the feeling of loneliness in the midst of brokenness.
Another good thing about being broken is that makes you pay careful attention to those around you. You listen more, you care more. You go deeper with people. I have had some great conversations with people over the past two weeks about many different things. Life, love, where to find meaning in life and love, children, parenting challenges. It's just good to share with those around you.
I count gifts on a daily basis. Interesting, my gift list of gratitude list used to look like a completed to do list. Going through grief, anger, and every other bitter emotion has completely changed this list. The list now details interactions with people. Smiles and sweetness from my children. Hugs and appreciation from my spouse. Conversations with friends and colleagues. Brokenness has changed my perspective. I am focused on people.
Brokenness. It made me look up at God. It brought me emotionally closer to those around me. It has changed my perspective. I am more focused on others.
Brokenness is good. Painful but good.
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